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why do we really torture ourselves like this???? i am/ was in a terribly screwed up relationship...not bc our relationship was bad...it was awesome, but it was his family. long story short, his family wanted him to have an arranged marriage (not to me bc i am not indian) to some girl they picked for him in india. he said over and over and over that he would never go through with it. he couldn't tell them about me, even tho he had been planning our wedding! he even said that he would rather not get married at all bc he didn't want to hurt his family by saying he wanted to marry me....and he didn't want to marry some chic they picked for him.....so in feb., he went to india (and swore up and down that it wasn't bc his parents were going to find him a bride. i even told him that i didn't believe him, but that i was going to say i did, so that we could stop arguing about it) and came back engaged. i am mostly over the relationship part, but he was my best friend for the past 10 years!!!! holy canoli, i can't and don't want to give that up, too. but then i think would i ever let a best friend treat me this way...the answer is always no. so why is it that i want to call him? and why when he does call me, i always answer...even tho i have caller id and i know that it only makes things worse? if anyone can figure out why we do these crazy things to ourselves, please let me know. i am not sure how much more i could take of this.
and pm-mama, if he is perfect in every way, except one...then he isn't perfect at all. there is someone who is really perfect out there. that is my daily mantra and it has really helped!
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