Dealing with bullying...

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I posted a thread a while ago because I was thinking about dropping. Well, I still am thinking about it. Here's why.

The school year has been going on for about a month. We had a great recruitment and got a lot of fantastic girls, and that made me happy even though I had been struggling since I came back. I've been battling depression and have started taking antidepressants, and that's taking a toll on me as well as my schoolwork.

Although I do have a lot of good friends in my sorority, there are a couple girls who have been bullying me for about a year. I don't want to go into specifics (because who knows... they might read this and then try to make my life even more miserable), but things finally came to a head recently. I contacted the president to tell her what happened, and she said she wanted to take action. When they got word that they were going to get in trouble, they started sending me threatening text messages. Despite that, I have contacted standards as well as our chapter advisor about what's going on. I feel so miserable right now. I don't think I've ever felt this miserable. They have made me feel like there's something wrong with me, because they are so nice to so many other girls. But I have been nothing but nice to them and they treat me like shit. They have made me feel like I don't belong in this chapter, despite me having other good friends who I do feel like I can turn to. And it just seems that they think they run the chapter, so they probably have the power to make my life even worse.

I don't even know what to do anymore. I've been considering withdrawing for the semester and just going home, but I don't think that would be the best thing to do. I'm sitting here crying while I write this.