Worried about recruitment

[worried]

Hi Everyone!

At my college you are not eligible for recruitment until after your freshman year. I am worried that this will really harm my ability to receive a bid at one of the few chapters at my small school. My freshman year I was friends with some girls and spent a lot of time with them. However one night in the fall I met this great guy who I started spending a lot of time with. Long story short I grew apart from my friends, but I didn't mind since I looked forward to spending time with the boy. However, once the spring semester came around things went downhill. He went abroad. I was alone. I made some friends but then had a falling out with them in Aprilish because I disagreed with something that one of them was doing and confronted that person. Now I was pretty much all alone. Finals week though I made some friends. Flash forward to this fall. I have plenty of "friends". People I can go to meals with or talk to before classes or possibly hang out with occasionally. People who I'll say hi to when passing by. However I don't have any real friends who I spend time with. I sit in my room and do homework or go to the library and do homework most of the time.

Tonight we had our first recruitment event as it is now starting at my school. I am worried that my lack of friends and a social life is really going to harm me. I spoke to a bunch of girls and introduced myself to almost all of the chapters that were present. I mentioned that I knew a girl who was in one of the chapters that I am most interested in and to my delight the girls were really excited and started talking to me. I tried to keep up the conversation but was being pushed out by other girls wanting to talk to them and eventually their interest in me faded.

To make a long story short, I am worried that my shyness will harm me in the end. I was wondering if you wonderful ladies had any advice to give me... I am also hoping that I did not give too much information about myself....

Thanks!

Worried.