Scared

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Hey everyone... I've been on greekchat several times and I finally just registered. The first time I came on was AFTER i went through formal rush this past fall semester. I wish I had found this site sooner.
Anyway, I went through rush and the sorority I just felt at home with did not give me a first invitation back. I thought I had really connected with those girls. It was heart breaking. I gave the other sororities on campus a chance and really looked into them too... but I just felt that Phi Mu was home. I went to the other houses and were impressed with their presentations but sometimes you just KNOW where you would feel the best. Mind you, the other sororities left were awesome, but again, I just felt like Phi Mu was home.
I wasn't sure why I got cut but I thought a large factor might have been my grades. I didn't have the high school minimum that they had wanted. At least I HOPE that was the reason I was cut. I've worked hard this past semester and got a 3.25. I was also told by some girls that I just didn't know enough people. Spring rush is going to start probably as soon as school begins and I want to try rushing again for Phi Mu but I'm scared. I don't think I can go through that heartbreak again.
Any advice or pointers would be awesome.