My crazy family

[norcalchick]

Ok. I just need to vent, so bear with me please...

Before I met my BF, my parents made me come home from school every 2 weeks (made me because that was how I got my $, I had to visit them). That drove me crazy because it took so much time to go there and the drive sucks and I HATE driving (2 hours, depending on the traffic). So I would miss out on things at school/social life. It was just always a hastle for me to go home all the time. Now, I have moved in with my BF, which is even farther than before (a 3 hour drive, depending on traffic). And I am no longer supported financially by my family.

There has been a lot of drama going on with my family. When I call them, they tell me things and it stresses me out and depresses me. I love them, and I do miss them at times, and I know they need someone to talk to once in awhile. But then they always want me to come home and visit. Not every two weeks now, but like once a month. And they try to guilt me into visiting. Or guilt me into doing something. They always try to tell me what to do which pisses me off and makes me not want to do it. Especially my sister. She's always trying to tell me to do things, she should be worrying about her own problems and not anybody elses.

I just visited my family this past weekend because I did want to see them. But then, my sister who has turned religious, tells me that my mom is going to go to this religious retreat. See, I'm not religious at all. I don't mind people who are religious. What I don't like are people that try to push religion onto others and are hypocrites (like my bro-in-law and sis). That's fine that my mom wants to go (because my sister talked her into it), but now I HAVE to go there for the "graduation" thing that they have at the end of the retreat. I guess people want thier family there because I guess they're supposed to have found God and all of that. But the problem I have about going is that it's going to be held during Labor Day weekend in Sacromento somewhere, where traffic is HORRID! So not only is the drive to my parents 3 hours, but it's going to be longer because of all the vactioners, but then it's ANOTHER 2 hours to Sac, and who knows how the traffic will be going there, it won't be good because a lot of people go to the Delta by Sac. So that's a whole lot of driving for one afternoon, not to mention the drive back! All for something that I don't really believe in. I want to be there for my mom because it would make her happy. It's just such an inconvenience. WHY would you have that on Labor Day weekend?! I just visited, and now I have to go back?! They alrady gave me a guilt trip when I said I wasn't going to go at first. So I am going, but am pissed off that I have to. If I end up not going, they will be PISSED.

(In June, we were going to go th my nephew's grad party. We left here late at night, got into my hometown, and saw that all the hotels were packed because of some NASCAR function that was happening nearby. So the only place left was this nasty, realllly smokey, hot ass room. We tried to stay there but were getting upset and couldn't sleep, we ended up leaving and coming back home. When I called and told them what happened, they got all upset and yelled at me and was telling me to get in my car and come back home! They can be very un understanding. (is that a word? lol) And that was just for a grad party!)

I know people are going to say "suck it up. do it for your mom," which I am, but I just needed to vent because everytime I think about it, it makes me mad and upsets me.

(There's a bunch of other background stuff, but the post is already long enough. The other stuff is much too personal, so I don't want to get into all of that.