I had to write this for final closure of the following situtation. For the past two weeks I had tried to prove my love to a nobody that really wasn't worth the last year and some months of my time. Why you ask? I find myself reflecting on this especially what happened last night. In a nutshell, he put his hands on me and told me that I didn't mean sh*t to him. Now this is after I was there when he didn't have a job, no money, his own mama put him out of her house and countless other times. I bit the bullet and stood by him regardless of what others thought/said because (during that point) that's who I wanted: him. When you're in love you are blinded to the serious imperfections one might have. Especially when it those same imperfections that can put at you risk/harm's way. He told me that his BABY (an ex who was just a "friend") would be home next week and that they were hooking back up! Mind you, this is the same ex that didn't give two cents about him. When I cried (just found out last night about the ex and true feelings during the so call altercation), he laughed like this was funny. I had real love for him that surpassed unreal. I prayed about it, let my bittness in my heart go and washed my hands clean of all of it. My grandmother always said that God don't like ugly and what you do will come back ten fold (good/bad). I have a daughter and the last thing I want her to think that a man will complete her. For awhile I was gulity of that. I am writing this for closure for me and info for all the sisterfriends. It going to hurt a little bit but time heals all wounds. Everybody plays the fool sometimes...
once it's on you, twice it's on me.
I apologize for the length but I had to get this off my chest.
LaDeia
PS As I was typing this, his job called me and said that he was terminated this morning for no call/no show. Guess who was his ride to work?
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