Email the nationals through the official website and inquire about it. I did that, and they sent me one and billed my chapter--I paid them for it when it arrived. They also did that with the songbook and CD. If you're not a collegian anymore, they can probably help send it directly to you. I've really enjoyed my copy, even though most of the girls in my chapter don't even know what it is! It's a really inspirational collection of quotes and some meditations on a variety of topics relating to sorority life and life in general.