Recruitment Advice

[onemiletoboston]

Hello!

I am new to greek chat and this is my first post. I am currently a freshman in a school in the new england area. Recruitment at my school is somewhat competitive, but not as competitive as the schools in the south, in fact compared to them my school sounds relatively easy to get a bid. I went through recruitment in the fall but between the first and second round I dropped. The reason was that a new sorority was colonizing on my campus. I really felt a strong connection to the sorority and I fell in love this the idea of being a founding sister and starting something new and the philanthropy was amazing and I felt great about trying to do this. I went to all the events they held for PNMs and I made a great connection with the woman living on campus to help start this colony. I thought I did everything right. Until the day we found out who was asked back and who wasn't. My roommate did this new sorority as well and received a text that morning saying congratulations. I did not. I knew at the moment that everything I worked for was gone, that I basically threw away my chances of joining the one thing I have dreamed of for the past four years. I went to pick up my envelope knowing my fate, and I opened it alone in an empty room on campus. It said I wasn't invited back and that not everyone can be apart of the colony. So, I apologize for this long story, but I was wondering what can I do now? I dropped from regular recruitment, so if I were to go through again next fall wouldn't that make me look bad? Do you suggest I try going through recruitment again in the fall? Or did I completely ruin my chances because of this? I am honestly crushed and I just want to be able to do the one thing I have always wanted. Please help me. Thank you!