I need help! :(

[ks94]

I am so lost and don't know what to do. I'm so upset and sad that my chapter doesn't feel like home anymore.

To sum it up, the girls in leadership positions in my chapter are dictating and controlling everything to the point where sisters are afraid to ask questions because any sister that does is watched for anything that could bring her to standards. Starting with the elections process, we do slating and NO ONE was allowed to try and discuss the eboard slate before they quickly moved on.

This semester (and over break) the transition from old eboard to new board showed that the president was dictating everything and there was no discussing anything. Sisters felt a wall between the eboard and rest of the chapter, and there was tension because many things felt like they were being kept from the chapter. Turns out the president is dictating the eboard as well and they aren't a part of decisions either. Many sisters brought up the idea of a group discussion (we call it something weird) but it was quickly shut down by our president and national advisor (who came in and controlled half of recruitment, including inviting all our PNMs to pref with no discussion with ANYONE; and she's also a bigot & has made awful comments about sisters who aren't white or straight). Also turns out our Standards chair is trying to find any girl questioning anything to bring them up to standards for any reason to shut them up. The standards chair apparently is trying to get a sister automatically dismissed by screwing with her hearing dates just because she doesn't like her.

I don't know what to do Last semester was a completely different environment and so many sisters feel like they have to watch their backs and are scared to say anything. I wanted to email someone in nationals (not our advisor) to get help because all of us feel trapped but I'm afraid of getting dismissed. I've already been warned to keep my mouth shut. This isn't what sisterhood is about and I'm scared for my chapter's future..