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First of all, like I said before, my big and I stopped being friends because of personal issues I had with her, not because no one else liked her. I started seeing her for what she really was: someone who thought she could control what I did, who talked about others behind their backs and then acted fake to their faces, and who was in general incredibly socially uncouth. As in, she brought up her drinking escapades and her ex boyfriends in front of my parents. So that's why we're not close and why I don't really care.
I don't really care about high school anymore. I haven't been in high school for 2 years, so it's whatever. However, I was always the one who people gave shit to in high school. And I thought being in a sorority would be different. But it's not. People still give me shit for things I do but ignore equally stupid things that other people do. I feel like they don't respect me enough to stop bringing up issues that I said I didn't want to talk about. And I'm sick of spending every weekend alone. And this is when I'm living in house. Next year, I have an apartment. If I spend every weekend alone right now, NO ONE is going to ask me to hang out next year, and I'm terrified. I don't like being alone all the time. I'm someone who likes to have a group of friends around her. And right now, I feel more lonely than I ever have.
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