[Kevin]

I just reread the OP. I'm concerned that some of your behavior, i.e., being exposed to abusive behavior and wanting to come back for more could lead to some very negative relationships in the future. I'm an attorney who often represents folks in domestic violence situations, so I'm somewhat familiar with the characteristics of women who might someday be victims of domestic violence and involved in a cycle of abuse. It may sound like I'm making mountains out of molehills, and maybe I'm off the mark, but consider this.

In addition to what the other posters are saying re: cutting the cord, I would also recommend some counseling for victims of domestic violence. The YWCA (probably in your area) should offer something like a 16-week course on this subject, or you might have something available through your university. You need to be able to recognize the warning signs of abuse and not fall into the cycle many folks find themselves in.