So you've been an XYZ for 1 year as a new member, but you couldn't participate the first semester because you weren't eligible as a part time student. The second semester you say you de-pledged because you didn't "think it was the right fit." Please tell me how we're supposed to interpret that as having been around? You began your original post with the helpful information of "i should be excited abt this, however they were not my first choice..or even my second." None of this speaks to an open mind or a person who has tried to make things work. Give the group a break and just go away. Sorry if you don't like my advice, but not all advice is the advice you want to hear.

Really weird circumstances but ok..

I'm having trouble understanding why you'd give something a chance that you've been miserable in for an entire year..? If you haven't made bonds, connections and don't feel at home by now, chances are you never will. I suggest you get out of it.

We had a situation where one of our NMs depledged because she thought she would be transferring, but when she realized she wasn't going to transfer, she approached us and asked if she could come back, and we let her. I don't know if this was a matter of reversing the depledging, or if she changed her mind before the paperwork was sent to HQ.

But yeah, this is different. The NM wanted to be in our chapter. We didn't go begging her to come back.

At my school, if you are not a full time student you wouldn't even be allowed to rush.

Since this org gave you a bid anyway, it's natural to have feelings of wondering if you made the right choice. Even though this org is your 3rd choice and not your 1st or 2nd you are obsessing what it is like to be in those sororities and that is probably preventing you getting that "home" feeling in your current org. You need to let it go because this org gave you a bid because they could see you as one of their sisters. It's pretty crappy that you repledged and already thinking about depledging again! You shouldn't of repledged if you were still doubting if that chapter is right for you.

Sure, the members may be happy and excited that you accepted a bid to them, but it takes time to make true connections and you got to be willing to put in the effort to hang out with these girls and find your comfort zone. They aren't automatically your best friends once you step in the door on bid day, but they will always be willing to hang with you if you give them the chance and put in the effort.

If you really can't see yourself in this group and can't let go of your 1st and 2nd choice, yes, you can go through formal recruitment again, but at some schools it's harder for upperclassmen to receive a bid and think about why your fav. chapters didn't want you the 1st time.

Again, it sounds like this chapter is beyond desperate for members. If the school is so laid back that stuff like credits isn't being checked by Panhellenic, you might actually have a bit of a chance at another group, but the fact is, even at a school like that, having been associated with this chapter for a year is going to hurt you. People are going to wonder why it took so long for you to shit or get off the pot.

AXiDa22 - I don't think she is miserable per se, rather that she still feels like a stranger in a situation where she should feel like a family member. Even when a chapter's going through numbers or other issues, bonds can still be made. But quite frankly, I wouldn't be surprised if they aren't any more jazzed about her than she is about them...they gave her a bid because she was a warm body and they need numbers.

Oh got ya 33girl!

That's just a really strange situation. I was eager to hang out with my sisters and make friends from day one, so I have no idea why someone would stay in it after a year; especially if she wasn't excited about it! I've been in my sorority for a year now and I couldn't imagine not feeling at home!