I'm so sorry that I haven't updated! I am the WORST person in the world. Finals and moving out just hit me for a whirlwind!
Now that it's summer, and my job doesn't start for another week, I'll update consistently
Here is what I put down:
Paris
Barcelona
London
Tokyo
New York
Rome
And I dropped:
Los Angeles
Miami
The next day I went through classes slightly anxious/excited/nervous/thrilled. I got all dolled up again. I got my schedule from my Rho Gamma and I got:
Rome
Los Angeles
Barcelona
Tokyo
London
New York
Despite having a record number of women going through recruitment, and everyone freaking out about cuts, I got a full schedule!
I was shocked that
Los Angeles was still on my schedule, but felt sick that
Paris wasn't. I REALLY wanted to be like those girls.
Today was philanthropy day where we were doing crafts. And as a VERY crafty girl, I took this seriously
First was
Rome where we colored these pages for a book. I was very into it while talking. I felt much more comfortable talking while I had something to do with my hands. However, I did not get an impression of the house at all. As I left the house I felt that I had been focusing a little too much on the coloring and not enough talking. Or just that this house was simply impression-less.
Next I went to
Los Angeles. Once again the girls matched perfectly, and I WANTED to like them. There were two sisters to two PNMS filling jars with mix to make cookies. It was fun, however I just didn't connect with the girls like I wanted to. And the other PNM was really connecting to the sisters. I was happy that she was, but thought that I really needed to drop this house. There was no way I could connect to any of them.
Onto
Barcelona. I was so thrilled to be back. I got double rushed here. A sister took me and another PNM through a room that showed all the events they did, and I saw how athletic and competitive they were. Between the spirit and personalities of the sisters and how comfortable I felt at the house, I felt like home here. I actually don't remember what craft we did, however, I had to fight for attention with the other PNM and I was REALLY fighting. I could imagine myself here. I LOVED this house.
After a quick dinner break, it was onto
Tokyo. I don't remember the craft we did, but I saw the woman from my self-defense class which was really nice. They showed me their philanthropy and I could tell it was very close to their hearts. That was very touching, but at the same time I was slightly uncomfortable, because I didn't get that same feeling about the philanthropy. I still did like the house though.
I was very excited to go to
London. I talked to a sister who I didn't really connect with. She didn't seem thrilled or very upbeat. I was trying to talk to her, but she just ignored me. We made potpourri. It was sad, but I still remember the greatest conversation that I had the day before with another sister.
Then it was
New York's turn. We stuffed bears, and I talked to a bigger sister. I liked the girls, I just couldn't imagine the house being a home to me.
On the way back to the meeting place, there was some definite tent talk going on about
New York. The girls said how they're the "fat girls" and how they were so desperate and never met quota. This really crushed me. I honestly did like the girls. They weren't my favorite, but they did not deserve the talk.
I ranked them:
Barcelona
Tokyo
London
New York
And I dropped:
Rome
Los Angeles
As I walked out of the room, I was very unsure of my decision.
New York wasn't bad, but they did seem like the fat sorority, and shallow and athletic as I am, I couldn't stand being apart of that.
Rome just left me with out anything, but I didn't feel like I had honestly given them a shot.
A couple of men in a fraternity walked myself and some other PNM's to our Residence Halls. They asked us which ones we liked and I listed mine off which they loved each one until I said
New York. As soon as I said that, they paused, and replied "uhhhhh."
When I got back, I called my mom, and told her my decisions. She was very unhappy with me for dropping such a strong national sorority (
Rome). But she also gave me the "what ever makes you happy" talk as well. I was so torn about recruitment. It was taking a very strong toll on me.