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Originally posted by mizzkes:
Right now I am going through soooooo much. I just wondered if any of you have ever felt a strain on your relationship with God. With everything that I have been going through....I mean, I have to watch my mother who has always been a devout Christian, never missed church, never even tasted alcohol, never uttered a curse word,etc, die of Cancer. And it just keeps getting worse and worse. I can not understand how....lets just say that God and I are just not the best of friends right now. Have any of you ever experienced this?
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mizzkes,
(((Cyberhug))) to you sweetie!! I have never experience anything like that, but I do understand what you mean about feeling far from God. As I mentioned in a previous post, my job is not going well right now. As a matter of fact, last summer I was trying to be on the first thing smokin' outta here! I sent out resume after resume and never even got a nibble!! I mean these were jobs that I KNEW I was qualified for!! I went through a big 'woe is me' period where I questioned God. I said things like "I serve you, I work in the church, I pay my tithes AND give offerings, I am (well, I try to be
submissive to my husband....yadda yadda yadda...why haven't you blessed me with a job?!?!" I can't say I was really
angry with God, but I was truly wondering why he wasn't hearing my prayer. I have since come to realize ('cause it can be hard when you are going through something) that God does not owe me anything!! I want to be like Paul when he said (and I'm paraphrasing--can't get my online Bible to work) that he has learned to be content whether he is abound or abased, whether he has much or little. I am also reminded that Paul asked God to remove a thorn in his side (2Corinthians 12), but God did not. Paul said when I am weak, I am strong (in Him).
But even before those revelations God showed me that Romans 8:28 (my favorite verse in the Bible) is true. All things
do work together for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose. The first of this year my mother got very sick and was hospitalized for a long time. After her hospital stay I was able to take over 5 weeks off (with pay!) to help take care of her because of FMLA and because I had the accumulated hours. If I had gotten another job when I was looking I would not have been able to take the time off to spend with my mother. I thank Him for not giving me what I wanted, but giving me what I needed!!
Be of good courage, mizzkes, and He shall strengthen your heart. I will be praying for you and your mother.
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