OVERWHELMED!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Miss. Mocha]

Mizzkes,


Yes, people feel that way sometimes.
When my daughter was born, I counted fingers and toes, and everything was perfect. Any mother will tell you that the health of her child is her health.

When my daughter was 3 months old, I got a letter in the mail, telling me that my daughter had a chronic illness.

YOU DON'T HEAR ME, THOUGH. I GOT A LETTER IN THE MAIL. Nobody had the decency to call me into an office, or counsel my husband and I about the situation, just a cold, heartless letter.

I prayed for weeks on end while I waited for the results of the retest to come back. While I was praying, GOD told me that everything would be all right. I took that to mean that her results would come back negative. They didn't.

I was inconsolable. I not only thought that GOD had abandoned me, I thought HE had lied to me. I told GOD "to his face", that I still loved HIM, but I was mad at HIM, and I wasn't his friend. I still went to church, but felt.....nothing.

After about 8 months of being mad with GOD, I saw a special on 20/20 about a little boy who suffered from up to 100 seizures a day. My daughter has never had anything more serious than a common cold. I dropped to my knees and praised GOD. As the preacher says "IF I HAD 1000 TONGUES, I COULDN'T HAVE PRAISED HIM ENOUGH." It was a spiritual rebirth. GOD was right, everything was and still is okay.

1) Stay open and receptive
2) Rebuke the enemy at all his many turns
3) Put on your full spiritual armor
4) Be ready to fight the "GOOD FIGHT"

And rest assured that GOD will show you the way that HE wants you to deal with the circumstances in your life.


Miss. Mocha

[LadyAKA]

Well may God bless all of you DOUBLE TIME!! All your words have meant so much, I did not start this topic but I sure needed it and all of the sayings, prayers and poems came RIGHT ON TIME! Thank the lord I have this forum and that GOD is using us to help each other - Yall are just the best!

I think I will actually be able to enjoy the rest of the day and especially the weekend. I was fighting it - you know how you just want to stay mad! Well that is not a good state to be in, thank you all for proving that!!

Again stay BLESSED NOT STRESSED!!

[Eclipse]

Originally posted by mizzkes:
Right now I am going through soooooo much. I just wondered if any of you have ever felt a strain on your relationship with God. With everything that I have been going through....I mean, I have to watch my mother who has always been a devout Christian, never missed church, never even tasted alcohol, never uttered a curse word,etc, die of Cancer. And it just keeps getting worse and worse. I can not understand how....lets just say that God and I are just not the best of friends right now. Have any of you ever experienced this?

mizzkes,
(((Cyberhug))) to you sweetie!! I have never experience anything like that, but I do understand what you mean about feeling far from God. As I mentioned in a previous post, my job is not going well right now. As a matter of fact, last summer I was trying to be on the first thing smokin' outta here! I sent out resume after resume and never even got a nibble!! I mean these were jobs that I KNEW I was qualified for!! I went through a big 'woe is me' period where I questioned God. I said things like "I serve you, I work in the church, I pay my tithes AND give offerings, I am (well, I try to be submissive to my husband....yadda yadda yadda...why haven't you blessed me with a job?!?!" I can't say I was really angry with God, but I was truly wondering why he wasn't hearing my prayer. I have since come to realize ('cause it can be hard when you are going through something) that God does not owe me anything!! I want to be like Paul when he said (and I'm paraphrasing--can't get my online Bible to work) that he has learned to be content whether he is abound or abased, whether he has much or little. I am also reminded that Paul asked God to remove a thorn in his side (2Corinthians 12), but God did not. Paul said when I am weak, I am strong (in Him).
But even before those revelations God showed me that Romans 8:28 (my favorite verse in the Bible) is true. All things do work together for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose. The first of this year my mother got very sick and was hospitalized for a long time. After her hospital stay I was able to take over 5 weeks off (with pay!) to help take care of her because of FMLA and because I had the accumulated hours. If I had gotten another job when I was looking I would not have been able to take the time off to spend with my mother. I thank Him for not giving me what I wanted, but giving me what I needed!!

Be of good courage, mizzkes, and He shall strengthen your heart. I will be praying for you and your mother.

[AKA_Monet]

ARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!

Work is driving me crazy!!! Now more than ever do I need to hear my Sorors and any SF!!!

I got into this wonderful healthy discussion about "it's a Black thang..." and then it turned ugly with a girl pipin' up into MY FACE and me turning it into a shouting match!!! I fell for her tricks again! This time last year the same exact thing happened with another girl! I work in a highly charged, racially hostile environment. The only reason why I put up with it for so long is that I need to advance in my position and I'd be better off! Also, it ain't no different anywhere else in my profession--biotech research laboratories. I'm one of the few, the proud, the minorities in science... And I'm about to BLOW MY F------- HEAD OFF!!!!

Pray for me Sorors and SF's. This kind of craziness I'm experiencing can only be defeated by DIVINE intervention!!!

[Miss. Mocha]

AKA MONET,


You are crazy girl (and I say that with love).

I will pray for you, and your circumstances. I once heard a preacher say (over the radio waves) that if people are bothering you at work, before you let your foot cross the threshold, all you have to say is "PEACE, BE STILL", and GOD will take over, and do your fighting for you. Try it, see if it works.