Hey guys... I had some "disturbing" news last night
What's up Sorors, Sisterfriends, and Bruhs:
I got some news last night, and I'm not sure if it is sad or not. One of my very best friends had a baby when she was 14 years old and in the 8th grade. She surpassed all odds and graduated from high school with highest honors, pledged a sorority in college, graduated from college, and is now working as a registered nurse. She has a beautiful daughter that is my godchild. She and the little girl's father split up years ago and have both gone on with their lives. My friend (who is now 25) just recently moved out from her mom's house and into her own apartment with her little girl, got a nice car, etc., etc., She is doing really well, but times get tight, as with everyone else. Well, she called me last night (overjoyed) because she has just found out that she is pregnant. The baby's father is a very nice guy, but he is 22, still lives at home and works in a grocery store. I faked happiness because I knew that she was.
Guys, please don't beat me up and tell me that I am self righteous because I know that I sin too... but my heart still aches. I know that last week I had to call MY mommy because I couldn't pay my phone bill....its for this reason that I take precautions. My father died when I was six years old, and I still have issues with men that I feel stem from a lack of a father figure...imagine how a child would feel if their father was ALIVE, and just chose not to be there. I really admired her for all she did when she was a baby having a baby, because she didn't know any better, but still managed to succeed. But now, she is a woman, and she just added to the fact that she was already a statistic.I'm not asking if I should still be her friend...I'm going to be there for her, and will be a godmother to this child too. I just can't help but to feel sad. Will you all please help me through this?
(Sorry for the long post)
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