LSP Rush -- Feeling awful

[MenaceKiller]

My fraternity's first rush with me as President went farkin' awful last night.

3 PNM's showed up (we're a local, not in IFC) and my rush chairpersons apparently did not plan to do anything other than "just chat" for 30 to 45 minutes, forgot to pass out the rush literature I had to introduce all the PNM's to our system and to make them more aware of just what RUSH is, kept pestering the guys about if they had any questions, then FINALLY, after a lot of uncomfortable silence, introduced me and the alumni advisor for our speeches.

After tossing and turning much last night, I'm pretty unhappy about how I let the rush chairs run things - I had to take charge after the speeches because they had just more "chat" and "a tour of the house" which only happened to be 10 minutes long. I started a "get to know each other" game where we passed around a football and stated our favorite movie, sports team, most beautiful woman in the world, what would we bring with us on a desert island, etc. That thankfully made time fly by and we ended rush on a more positive note.

I'm afraid that the first impressions of the rushees are that we're lazy guys who couldn't get the first night underway properly. I'll admit that the two rush chairpersons were two of our most inexperienced brothers, but what also disappoints me is that no other brother decided to pick up the slack where they felt the rush chairs were lacking, except myself. I'm afraid that we've almost definitely turned off at least two of the guys who attended, and are only interested in coming back because the second night is a joint event with a sister sorority.

I'm berating myself, too, because prior to my taking charge of the games, the question of "I heard this fraternity is really a gay fraternity, right?" came up and I explained how we got that stupid label -- but then when we were asking about movies, I stated I liked a more girlish movie "The Princess' Bride" and some of the facial expressions of the guys made me wish I picked "The Matrix."

What can I do to ease my mind off these things?