All right. So today was bid day. And let me just tell you all that I have been on an emotional roller coaster this entire day. I got my bid, and opened it to find out that I was not a tagalong. I was a trefoil. My heart instantly dropped. I felt deceived by the tagalongs. The girl was so nice to me and told me how much she wanted me to be her sister. I told her how comfortable I felt in her house. I told her how the ceremony made my eyes tear. I made it perfectly clear how much I wanted to be in their house. No such luck. After I opened my bid, I was instantly disappointed. But soon as we were running to all our houses, I perked up. I thought to myself, that I may just fall in love with them. Clearly they saw something that the tagalongs didn't, so maybe this was where I belonged. I got to the house, I was smiling at all the girls and introducing myself to other girls in my pc. But quickly the excitement went away. When we were inside, getting to know each other, I felt bored and out of place. I felt so at home at the tagalongs house that I had just assumed I would end up there. And it felt so weird to be back at the trefoils house. I felt depressed and angry. When bid day ended, I went back to my dorm and cried. I let all the emotions that had been building up through recruitment week just pour out of me. I called my mom and cried to her. I cried to my friend, who happened to get into the tagalongs house. I wanted to die. Then I realized that was absolutely ridiculous and WAY overdramatic and that it hasn't even been a day and I will most likely make a lot of friends in my sorority. I felt so out of place today that it just felt like I would always feel out of place. But that is just such a stupid thing to think. The first day I got to school, I felt awkward and shy, but its only been a week and I've made several good friends! So if anyone else is reading this and has a similar experience, take it from me, it will probably get better. In one day I went from excited and assuming I'd get the house I wanted, to sad, to excited again, then to angry and depressed. But now I feel a lot better. This week has been really stressful on me and I didn't even realize it until today. But I found my sisters and I know I am going to be happy.
Sooooooo.... without further ado, I would like to officially announce my chapter!!! I won't be revealing my school because I feel like I've shared too much negative information about my specific chapter, and school.
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I'M A DELTA DELTA DELTA!!!!
And I am so proud to be one!! Thank you to everyone on greek chat for the amazing support and advice!!
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