So, I didn't get that dreaded phone call so I was glad that I was invited to at least one party
I got there that night and I was told I was going to party #2, but she wouldn't tell me which sorority it was. I was REALLY hoping it was for American Idol that I actually believed that it for American Idol. Since I could go up to two parties, I wasn't invited by two of them. I assumed right away that America's Next Top Model, since I didn't really have the best connections with them, so I really too bummed out by that.
I waited until Party #2 and I was sooo excited for what I was hoping to be the pref party for American Idol! When I got there, I realized that the party was for Project Runway! I was sooooo hurt/upset/frustrated that I didn't get invited to American Idol's pref party.
I was preffed by a really, really cool girl I met on Night #3. I really liked her and the conversation was good, but I don't think we 100% clicked. During the ceremony, it was beautiful, it seemed so heartfelt, and I could definitely see the strong sisterhood between these girls. However, during the entire ceremony, I was thinking, "Why wasn't I invited by American Idol? Why didn't they like me? Did I say anything wrong? Is there anything else I could have told them?" This completely stopped me from really feeling a connection to the ceremony at Project Runway.
After the ceremony, I was still so hurt that I didn't get invited by American Idol, because I wanted to be an American Idol sooooo badly. When it came time to fill out the bid card, I was thinking of not joining a sorority. I didn't really connection to the girls I met on Night #4, nor I did I click with the girl that preffed me.
Then, I really thought about it. If Project Runway chose me for their preference, that meant they saw something in me that they liked. Plus, I really liked them the first three nights. I also thought, when I get into a large group of people, when am I ever gonna click with every single person I meet?
Even though, I was still upset that American Idol didn't choose me, I decided to put Project Runway as #1 on my bid card.
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