lonely and depressed...

[tld221]

i suppose ill throw my "woe is me, im single" post:

ive been single for... a few years, i guess 6 years now? the last real relationship i had was short and sweet. ive been on a couple dates over the years since then, but they were all lame ducks--dudes who wanted to do the friends thing, dudes who liked dudes, dudes who had girls already, etc.

i've done the "im single and loving it" thing. and the "im single and hating it" thing. and then the "im gonna dress really provocatively and see who will take me home" thing. and then the "im gonna be a total spinster and see who will ask for my number. the "ill be a woman of the new generation and ask HIM out" thing wasnt so empowering.

so now im doing the "welp im almost 25 and ive never felt this much pressure to be in a relationship" thing. of all my friends, one recently got married, another engaged, and the rest are either in committed relationships (im the oldest of 4 and all my siblings are in relationships!) or desperately single like myself.

so now... im just doing me. which is what i shouldve done all along. but dammit, man company is nice you know!