RUSH at UCSB

[Sunny]

I got my invites back this morning, and I was dropped by all four houses I was interested in, and subsequently decided to withdraw from rush.

When my rho chi, who's actually in Alpha Phi (I've known since the beginning) told me where I'd been invited back, I was shocked. I'd really felt like I'd hit it off with so many girls and I was so incredible excited to see them again, and I've been hearing nothing but compliments and girls who SEEMED totally enthralled with me. I didn't really expect invites from all four, but I never dreamed this would happen. I think the thing that hurt the most is that I had friends who basically made it their mission in life to convince me to rush their house...so I finally made up my mind, and really got into it, and now this. In a way, I almost feel betrayed. I was told "I can't wait till you're in!" "You better pick my to be your big sis" "Ohmigod, if you rush anywhere else we'll kill you!" and then I got dropped. And I know it's probably because I'm a junior, but it's still very very difficult for me, because I'd gotten my hopes so high. Withdrawing was a very hard choice, but I decided that I wouldn't be happy in any of the houses that did invite me back. I'm thinking about COB, but there's a good chance all houses will make quota...and that doesn't help with the feeling that my friends rejected me...god this sucks..I'm going back to bed.