Need advice on friendship

[bucutie02]

Okay well i have been wanting to post this for a while, but i wasnt really sure...

I feel like i dont have a best friend anymore. I will start from the beginning. I met my best friend freshman year in high school. We both ended up trying out for drill team and then when we both made it we became best friends through the years. We never really fought or anything in high school, and our moms became good friends as well. Well when it was time for college i had choosen Baylor and she wanted to go somewhere else. At the fear of going to a university without knowing anyone, she applied to Baylor and for her to be accepted she had to attend summer school prior to the fall semester. Of course, she ended up going and was extremely depressed. Anyway, when the fall semester came along, we were roommates. Everything was going fine, except we would be so depressed there that we would come home every weekend (big mistake, i know!). Everytime i would make new friends and then they would come over to our room, she would be there and i would introduce them to her. Well my friends became her friends as well because i always felt bad not inviting her along when i would go out with the new people i had met. Her and I would always eat pretty much every meal together along with other friends. So one day im talking to my mom on the phone after one of my classes and she asks "so are you going to eat some lunch soon?" and i reply by telling her yes but im just waiting on Candace to get back from her class. That was when my mom tells me "well she might be eating lunch right now". "Whatever, we always wait for each other, she would never do that to me- besides she didnt leave me a note or anything," i answered her. Well low and behold, my best friend walks in the room about 10 minutes after i had gotten off the phone telling me that one of our friends was really hungry and asked her to eat lunch with her. Okay well i know this may just be a silly little thing, but it really hurt my feelings. As soon as she told me that i was so upset that i just went to another friend's room. After that day, the rest of the time we had left at Baylor that year didnt flow too well. I remember having a day off school about two weeks after that incident where there were all these activities going on on campus so i decided to go out with some friends to it without inviting her. Turns out she spent the entire day cooped up in the dorm room. I felt awful about it, and i know it was wrong, but i wanted to show her how i felt. Okay well that was that- the following year i stayed in town and went to school here while she went to school out of state, near a school where her boyfriend is at. That day she left she didnt call me to say bye or anything, i received an email from her about 2 weeks after. She ended up joining a sorority up there and things seemed to go well for her. When she came home from christmas, i didnt get a chance to see her since she was busy with other things. Well May came around and she told in an email that she would be coming home in a week, couldnt wait to see me, and she would call me as soon as possible. I too was exciting in seeing her since i havent seen her in about a year. Well she never called. It wasnt until maybe two weeks ago that she emailed me. She told me that if she was a good friend she would have called me by now. She said that she didnt realize it has been almost two months since she got home. She emailed me asking if it was okay to call me because she is thinking im upset and doesnt blame me if i am.


I dont know what to do because i am mad at her, but at the same time it would be nice to have a best friend again. There are a lot of things that really really annoy me about her. Number one is that every time i am talking to her, whether its on the phone or in person, she also interrupts by saying the most off the wall things. Makes me feel like she isnt paying attention to me. This of course, i have talked to her about and she says she will try to not do it anymore, although its still the same. Plus, she has admitted to me that I am a better friend to her than she is to me.

I have really only asked my mom what to do because she is really the only one that knows all the ups and downs about this friendship. My parents dont like her very much anymore because of all the things she has done to me. My mom isnt friends with her mom anymore either.

I am sorry if this has gotten really long, and maybe confusing- but i dont really know what i should do. Is this friendship worth keeping in your opinion?