Regrets and Concerns

[dc1]

I need to get something off my chest that has been haunting me...

Background:
The other night, some friends and I were out at a bar that is frequented by gay/lesbian patrons. Everything was going great until two gentlemen (and I use that term loosely) entered the bar. One of the two started making rude comments; comments that were both crude and biggoted.

Because my friends and I were sitting at a table some distance from the bar, I didn't notice the man until he started walking around and getting in the face of some of the other patrons. I noticed no one was doing anything, so, while this man was insulting some little guy, I walked over to him. I stepped between he and the little guy and told him that he should leave. His response was a combination of insults that would make a sailor blush and then he swung...

To shorten the story, the ignorant man is in the county hospital and I have a court date...

My problem with this is that I have never had to beat anyone down before. Even though I am "built to beat" (my friends always say that), I have never hurt anything or anyone in my life. Violence is against everything I believe in; yet I was forced to go against those beliefs.

To be honest, everything right now looks ugly. I am so disenchanted with people right now!

Question: What makes someone become so hateful of people that they would harrass them?

I am not really worried about the court case, that is something a little money can fix... but I hate the fact that I had to hurt someone...

Sorry for rambling... I just needed to get that off my chest.

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Faced with the Divine, I was asked; "What one gift do you seek?"
I answered ever so meekly; "I seek Honor, Truth, Integrity, and Wisdom, yet those are four. How am I to choose?"
The answer came as a pounding whisper; "The four you seek are but one. I grant thee Compassion; for without it the four make none."
Author - me

[This message has been edited by dc1 (edited June 19, 2001).]