Non-Greek Friend Advice...

[josh8o]

ok, so i really need some advice...

sicne i first came to sdsu i had a friend from the dorms names Allison. she was my best friend through college, and no matter what we always were there for each other. There were times when she thought i was too involved with my fraternity and that i put her and the rest of my life second to Phi Psi, but she was my date to our only formal in vegas and other date dances and parties. Anyway, to make a long story short the middle of this past spring semester she found out that she was going to be moving to England after graduation for her career in the Airforce. We even made stupid plans on how to get me a job there too so we didnt have to be separated. Not long after she started getting a little psycho...cutting friends out of her life...causing drama...and not being the Allison i had come to think was my soulmate as a best friend. When she stoped speaking to me, and completely cut me off i was hurt, lost, and confused. Through everything i have gone through since the last time we talked you would know that i needed her as a friend a lot. arround the time she was to move to England i sent her phone a text wishing her good luck, and saying goodbye. She responded 2 days later telling me she was in vegas and thinking about me. anyway... today i get an email from her...and it goes like this:

"I was looking through a cd album I made a long time ago and I came across this picture. It almost brought me to tears... I wanted to share with you one of the many wonderful and happy memories that I have of us. I dont know where you are or what you are doing... but I hope that whatever it is-- that you are happy with yourself and your life. I wish only the best for you and your future.
I love you.
Al"

the picture was of from a party at Phi Psi where we dressed up a "business pimps." there was no theme to the party...but Allison and i decided it would be more fun.
so my delema is this: part of me wants to write back and tell her how i had to hold back a few tears at work this morning when i read it, and that i miss her so much. that i never thought i could have had such a big piece of me gone when she left. and the other part of me wants to tell her that she does not deserve to have wonderful memories of a friendship she treminated for reasons i never knew. There is also a part of me that wants to delete the email and act as if it never arrived. leave her to wonder about the friend she lost....just the way i did when she cut me off.

So what do i do?