ok.. this might be a bit long.... i met my friend nicole in high school- and we really weren't friends at all until my freshman year of college and we became friends through a mutual friend.... we stayed close- going on trips and stuff like that- but she was always drama though- she was that girl that was alwyqas getting into fights- and causing problems- she didn't get along with her parents- and liked to drink a lot- plus she had major problems with her crazy ex-boyfriend (so she said) but we always got along- and we respected each other....
she had just graduated from the culinary institute near me- and had spent her externship in las vegas- she had met a guy out there- and he was offering to fly both of us out there to visit- so we went- and we were having a great time- until a friend of aarons came aorund and though she was supposed to be with aaron- she got really wasted and accused me of trying to get with the friend.. long story short- she went completely crazy- stole aarons car- and he had to call the cops on her.... she has a history of anger problems and mental disease in her family- the cops made her get a plane and leave- she threatened me and was just horrible- she also cancelled my plane ticket to get home... then she called me a few days later and was like- this is your fault- and blamed the whole thing on me... luckily my mom bought my ticket home- and i talked to her a few times-
but nicole couldn't understand why i was being so cold to her... hmm takes a genius doesn't it? so i went back to school- and didn't really talk to her that much- one day she called me and she had gotten kicked out of her house- and was like i need a place to stay..... against the wishes of my mom and all my friends... i let her stay with me for like 5 days while at school.... i had a lot of stuff going on... it was homecoming weekend and i had a lot of rush stuff going on sicne i was rush chair and we had pledging starting soon- i was really busy- and i told her that i had commitments and i couldn't just blow them off to be with her all the time.... so one night we had a party at my house (not my sorority house- i lived with 7 guys and another girl) and she got reallllyyyy wasted and locked the guy that i was completely in love with in MY bathroom and tried to make out with him (yes she knew that i really liked this guy)....
i walked in on them kissing- and i freaked out- i was like i can't bleiev eyou would do this- i open up my house to you and this is how you repay me- so she created a massive scene in front of all my friends who were trying to get her to leave- luckily one of my best friends was there- and she tried to calm me down.... all the sudden we realize that nicki isn't there- she walked out and she didn't know my neighborhood at all- so we all walked over the neighborhood looking for her b/c it was like 2 am....
i stayed at my best friends house- and i came back in the morning b/c we had sorority stuff going on- and she was sleeping in my bed- i couldn't even deal with her then- so i left and came back a few hours latre- i found her on my computer writing me an letter- and i had like 4 of my girls with me and all my boys were there-i told her that she had to leave- and i said that i never wanted to talk to her again.... so like 20 mins later she left (she had her car there)... i read the email and it basically told me that i had a guy problems and that it was my fault that this stuff happened....i was just appalled... but of course- i felt guilty- my friends said htat this wasn't the case and told me to forget about her
i couldn't just forget about her though- i felt awful about the whole thing and i am still really upset by it- and its almost a year later.....
then my mom called me and told me that nicole called my house and said that her mom had passed away... i was pretty good friends of the family... so i was shocked- she wasn't sick or anything..... i checked the obituaries... and its true- but it doesn't say what happened.... i am going to send a card... but i feel terrible- i would never wish this upon anyone.....
i guess what i'm trying to ask is... should i feel this guilty about no tbeing there for her..? im not going to be back in the states for another month- so i obviously missed the funeral and stuff.... am i in the wrong..? should i call her..??
thanks everyone.... sorry this was so long...
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