feeling down
hey girls,
I am looking for some words of encouragement or some helpful thoughts, here is a situation that I am struggling with...
This semester I have been on academic probation with my chapter, I am the first to admit that I did bad last semester and I needed some help and guidance, recently, my probation was up and the board asked me if I thought that I should still remain on probation. I said yes that it helps me out b/c I am not allowed to go to all events so this gives me more time. I have been struggling really bad this semester with depression and it has taken everything I have just to stay here at school. Well in order to remain on probation the whole chapter has to vote and they voted I should stay on probation and could only attend meetings. But we have formal in two weeks and when I agreed that I needed to stay on probation the board made it apparent in my mind at least that they would allow me to go but I still couln't go to sisterhood retreat or anything else. Well I was looking forward to formal, I was going to take my best guy friend who graduates in December and had the perfect dress and now two weeks before they have told me I can't go. I feel betrayed and hurt by my sisters. Many of them knew my personal situations and many didn't. I was so upset I considered resigning b/c to me what's the point in trying to give your all to something and then not getting but a grain of anything back in return?
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