Lately i dont know what is wrong with me...things have been super stressful at school, but i dont feel connected to my group anymore. When i go to the house, i feel uncomfortable and uneasy and im afraid to say things, fearing that no one will understand. I havent gone to any events lately, i've just been signing the book, now...i have a lot of things going on with class...im taking 20 credits and its been mid-terms for me, so i've had to study...A LOT. I feel like im slipping up big time into old habits again, which isnt good and it seems that i dont even care if i die from this. I know that sounds so stupid, but im serious. I dont know what is wrong with me and i just want to cry but i cant show my emotions to anyone, i dont want them to know. Earlier in the semester, i wrote my Archon a letter, explaining how things were not well and nothing ever happened...she didnt even say anything to me. I sorta feel like im not even part of my chapter anymore, i know that sounds terrible to say. Im embarassed to be here, writing to other phi sigs b/c im scared to talk to my chapter.....i just wish sometimes i wasnt here
Please dont be mean, im not meaning to make anyone angry here...just trying to figure things out and get some advice...on what...i dunno....
LITP,
ktbug
not feelin it anymore....something is wrong w/me
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