unhappy -- need advice

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hello phi sig sisters,

I have been very unhappy with my phi sig chapter. to the point were i almost disafflicted two weeks ago. I talked to the MAL last night after a certain situation happen in the chapter, and Since i am MRC and the girls are my friends i am being blamed for it. I have been getting e-mails that make me cry, from our prez and from two others sisters, one of which i do not like and i can't be in the same room. i came home for the night cause i have a therapy Appt. My parents listened to me cry for about two hours. My parents don't understand how my sorority would have something againse my two good friends. They are the all-american girls -- every chapter on campus has been trying to get them for the last year, but they want us partly cause of me. Personally, my parents do not like most of my chapter, my dad said most of the ones he has met have no real personality! And i have been seeing that lately!

let me explain what happen: two of my good friends came out to an event. They had a great time and thought the chapter was soo sweet. Well, our VP called me the next morning to ask what i thought about it. i wanted to give them a bid and so did the MAL. Three of the sisters loved them. Four didn't get to talk to them that much, but that they were sweet and cute and good girls. Three didn't like them, HOnestly I hate to say it but two were new sisters and new sister my have voice but not no vote in my opinion! So i called the sisters and the majority of them had no problem with giving them Bids So we did. They both are waiting for next semester to do it. Now, I have about three to four e-mails from sisters Saying Sh*t about it. I feel i am personally being attack from some of the sisters. I called our MAL crying last night. She and i are good friends and she has NEVER seen me this upset since my ex boyfriend. She is calling the whole chapter infront of j-board. So i will be able to talk, cause noone is letting me talk.

MY dad made a point that i don't do anythign with my sisters but sorority stuff. I personally do not like hanging out with them outside of sorority. I am closer to another sorority on campus then my own. My parents feel i joined the wrong sorority, and i honestly feel that too right now. I had two sororities( the popular ones on campus) that wanted me to come out to them but i went to Phi Sigma. And i honestly feel right now it was the worse thing i did. I don't know what to do. My illness is effected my stress aand i have enough stress from school and friends. I don't think it is worth it right now.