I just got out of what I think was a pretty unsuccessful rush experience. After the first day I was released from not one but two sororities and I got the distinct feeling I was the only one (we're supposed to release one a day here over the rush period) despite the Rho Chis saying I wasn't (I suspect they were just trying to be nice). So I went back thinking, hey, no problem, I can work with this and put on my best face and smiled through all of today's parties and had a good time, and met a lot of nice people. And today I got released from all of the rest, so no more parties for me. Now they said I might still get offered a spot in a "snap bid" or somesuch but I'm wondering if I should even bother?
I wonder why I was "released" from so many groups (I hate that word release, when it's one or two it's a release, when it's all of them seems to me like they might as well ditch the PC wording and just say "rejected").
I was never a "popular girl" in high school, so my unpopular roots may have been showing. I am also a lot older than the other rushees (I'm back for my second degree and just decided to try this out) and I maybe made a mistake in being honest about this.
I want to ask why I was let go from all of them. But I know I can't ask. Is this a really terrible sign? How common is it for people to get released from ALL the sororities on their campus? And in the second day no less? Will I even get a bid? And if I do, it is just because they HAVE to offer me one (in which case maybe I should save them the trouble and not inflict myself on them)? Or am I overthinking this (like I was overthinking which one to pick since it obviously wasn't a choice I had any control over) because I likely won't get a bid anyway?
All in all, I'm left feeling kind of depressed about the whole thing and wondering if I wouldn't have been better off not bothering with it in the first place. It was kind of neat to see the inside of all the houses but was it really worth putting myself out there just to have them all reject me?
Having a bad night
~Eve
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