Going through recruitment a third time?

[tapuz]

So as I'm writing this, I honestly feel really dumb. Not sure why, but maybe it's partially due to the fact that I just went through my first informal recruitment at my school, and have been checking my email since last night to hear back from a sorority only to find out that they emailed out invitations to their preference night last night...so I just wasn't invited.

I went through formal rush last spring, and got invited to two preference nights. Being silly and indecisive I panicked because my first choice dropped me that night and I had absolutely no backup plan in my mind as to what to do...and realized that if I didn't feel 100% ready to commit somewhere else that I should back out. So I did.

Come fall, I had gotten to know many of the girls in sororities that I had met at rush. I was very excited for it because people had told me that when they didn't get bids to where they wanted in the spring they'd come back in the fall and it would always work out for them. I go to a fairly small school with a really small greek community (about 10%), so I didn't think it would be a problem. However, at orientation, I was honestly really surprised at how many girls were there.

In the fall, the sororities can only fill up to their quota, so each sorority could take anywhere from 6-9 girls, which I guess in a sense makes it more competitive.

Anyway, fast forward to the events. Went to the one of my top choice, loved the girls (many of whom I already kind of knew), had a good time, only issue was that it was VERY crowded and loud and I'm really bad at having conversations when it's that loud. After that event ended I felt kind of iffy about my chances because of all the people that were there. I went to another sorority's events, and liked it a lot more because it was quieter and calmer, and everyone was super nice.

The next morning I checked my email to see that the sorority that I loved had not invited me back to their event, while the other sorority had another open event, which I went to with a smile on my face (even though I was still really let down about the other sorority). The next night, I got an email back from the sorority whose event I attended inviting me to their first invite only event. I was so excited! The next night I nervously went, ended up having a fantastic time with the girls, and was really mad at myself for not being excited about this sorority earlier this year, as well as last spring...when they had invited me to their preference night.

Today however, I found out that I was not invited back to their preference night. I'm just thinking about how I once had the opportunity and I didn't take it.

From reading a lot of the "why didn't I get a bid posts," I know you guys will say, maybe it's not the sorority, maybe its you. Maybe you're just not meant for a sorority.
I've thought about it again and again, and I really think at this point it was just about numbers, chance, and luck. Even when I did get invited to an invite only event that had 20 people come, the sorority could only take 9 of us.

I'm a pretty social person, know a lot of Greeks, am involved on campus, and have pretty good grades.

What do you guys think about rushing for a third time in the spring during formal? I initially didn't even consider this as an option, but now I'm thinking the exposure to ALL of the sororities again would be helpful (maybe?). I will be a second semester sophomore, which isn't that big of a deal at my school in terms of rush (since we have delayed rush anyway). What do you guys think of PNM's who are returning rushees? Do you view them as desperate/or appreciate their commitment/determination?