Harry Potter and the Sorority Recruitment!

[supppang]

Tomorrow was bid day and I could hardly contain my excitement! I showered and got ready for bed, even though I felt like I couldn’t sleep. Bids went out at noon and I had class at 12:30, so I was nervous I would be late. But I didn’t care, I was too excited to see if I would be a Harry Potter or a Hermione Granger.

Right as I was about to get into bed my phone started to ring. I recognized it as my Rho Gamma’s number and my heart dropped. I knew what this meant but I didn’t want to believe it. I hoped that she just needed to tell me something random and I nervously answered…

Then my heart broke.

My Rho Gamma told me that I did not receive a bid from either house that I had preferenced. I couldn’t believe it. But I calmly listened to what she had to say. She told me that both Ron Weasley and Luna Lovegood were offering snap bids and asked if I would like to accept one from either of them. I didn’t even have to think about it. I said no, and that was the end of our conversation. It was very brief. I knew I wasn't meant to be in Ron Weasley and I didn’t know enough about Luna Lovegood to just spontaneously join. Maybe if I had known more… My whole body was shaking. I closed the door to my room and laid down. I didn’t even know what to do. I couldn’t believe it. I had consistently been invited back to two of my favorites and then neither of them had given me a bid? How could this have happened? I felt crushed. And I started to cry. And I couldn’t stop. I felt so stupid. It was just a sorority, it shouldn’t matter that much. But for some reason, it did. I had waited all last semester for recruitment, I had been so excited during the whole process, it had been the highlight of my college experience and it was ending like this? Me without a bid? It made me feel worthless. It made me feel not good enough. I didn’t know how I was going to tell everyone. I had blabbed to all my friends about how awesome recruitment was going and how excited I was to see where I’d end up. I didn’t know how to tell them that I didn’t get a bid from anyone. How was I going to tell my mom?! She didn’t know much about it but I know she would never have thought that none of the sororities would have wanted me. I didn’t know how to deal with it. So I just fell asleep. And the next day I was in zombie mode.

I told my boyfriend what happened briefly and he said he was sorry. But I didn’t care enough to go into detail about it. I was just incredibly silent the whole day and he didn’t know what to do. I told my friend in Draco Malfoy that I didn’t get a bid, so she could talk to me that day (since girls aren’t supposed to talk to PNMs on bid day)! She was shocked as well and felt really bad. The worst part of that day was sitting in class at 12:30. Knowing all the girls I had gone through recruitment with were waiting outside the Office of Greek Life for their bids. Excited to see where they would end up. What made it even worse is girls were trickling into my class late, excitedly opening their bids and talking to one another. I could barely hold it together. I started tearing up in class and I had to fight not to start crying. I have no idea what we learned that day.

Facebook was torture. I saw all of the girls posting on each others walls, congratulating them, welcoming them. And all I could think was, why her, not me? What did I do wrong? Was I not involved enough? Was it because I was a sophomore? Was my GPA not high enough? Why wasn’t I good enough, I needed to know! My friend from Draco Malfoy called me that evening and said she talked to some of her sisters and they were willing to offer me a bid. I politely declined. I told her that it was so sweet of them to do that, probably one of the sweetest things anyone had ever done. But I hadn’t been invited back to their preference and I just knew it wasn't meant to be. I thanked her again for being a great friend, but knew I wasn’t supposed to end up in any of these sororities.

I was depressed about this for a long time, not to mention incredibly bitter. Sometimes I even regretted not accepting any of the places I was offered. But I felt like it was all out of pity. I was sad whenever I saw someone wearing her letters. Envious whenever I heard of date parties and formals. They were living something that I had wanted so bad, and still did. But I didn’t know how to fix it until….

Until what? Stay tuned to hear the end of my story! It’s a happy one I promise! Do I go through informal recruitment? Does Harry Potter or Hermione Granger offer me a spontaneous bid?! Do I decide to go through formal recruitment as a junior? What do you think! Final update will be on Sunday!