i am horrible...what should i do?

[sarahDG]

hi--
i have a problem. i lie. i cheat. i steal. i have a problem, and it is out my control. i have started to get help and will be getting intensive treatment, but i have another problem.
i don't know what this means in term of my sorority. i love my sorority. it is my life. i ma fully involved and always wearing something supporting my chapter. in light of recent events, and the fact that i have hurt a couple members of my chapter, i don't know what to do.
i believe i am a disgrace to my chapter. i have already removed my lavalier and limited my contact to the women of my chapter (which has been incredibly hard considering they are normally whom i turn to). i have been forced to move in with a guy friend of mine and rely on his support because i don't know where else to turn.
i emailed my president and my vp social standards about what has been going on, and i am waiting for their response.
i am just at a loss here and really don't know what to do.
i never realized how much my chapter and the fine women in it meant to me until now...when i don't have them.