I just need a little help in being a prospective..

[lady12]

First, I would like to say hi to any and everyone who is or will be answering this post. I stumbled upon this website as a prospective in researching XYZ Sorority, Inc. I'm a little afraid to release any info such a name and things of that nature because I understand and truly respect the needs of discretion of all of the D9 organizations. From reading past posts, I can see that the women of the organizations are so nice, are in a position to, and are willing to help. From what I understand, the individual doesn't choose the organization, the organization chooses the individual. I've read about being turned down and those who continue to try even after a letter of rejection. I don't know when my school is going to have MIP but I have taken the time to perfect my community service, write my letter of interest, beef up my GPA (now 3.7), and researched until I could no longer see straight to make sure that this is what I wanted to do with my life and I am so beyond sure that it is in my heart. Although, I am doing these things for myself (I want to attend Georgetown for law school and it's a tough school to get into.), I don't think it hurts to make myself look good on paper for this sorority, also. I just want to be prepared in case the opportunity presents itself. I'm afraid of the interview process and other things that go along with presenting myself in the hopes of being chosen. However, I don't have the courage to ask in person (as of right now) because of my severe fear of being outed as someone who wants to pursue membership and/or being rejected because they know I'm interested. I don't have any family in the sorority that I would like to join but does it matter where I get my feedback from? Is it okay to practice the interview process with those active members? Or should the books and website suffice and I just completely rely on chance when it comes to being face to face with the women of this sorority? I like to be prepared but there is a thin line between confidence and cockiness. Please help me if you can. It would be GREATLY appreciated. I apologize if this is entirely too long. I'm just really nervous.