Okay so I rushed last semester and I didn't get a bid. Technically, I could have joined one of the three sororities I rushed for but I didn't feel like it was a good fit (and my horribly dreadful ex-roommate joined, which furthered this feeling). Anyhow, I realized after I rushed that during rush I wasn't really being myself. I talked about weird things I wouldn't normally because I was nervous and sort of confused. I didn't even know if I wanted to join a sorority, it was really spur of the moment. I met a lot of really great girls during rush and it made me realize that I really did want to join, but by then I had already sent off weird hesitant vibes. I pretty much did a lot of the things the advice sticky post says not to do... but mostly cause I was nervous and being really weird like I said.
It hurt really bad to not get a bid and I think I might feel stupid rushing again. Since most of the members on this board are in sororites, do you think people look pathetic if they rush again after not getting a bid the first time?
Also, I am a junior and I heard that only 7 juniors were let in. If I rush again in the fall, I'll still have at least 3 or 4 semesters left because I switched majors and it put me behind. I'm technically a junior so I didn't want to lie but I won't be graduating as soon as that would sound.
Anyways, I really regret the way I was during rush the first time. It wasn't even the real me, which is even more frustrating. I'm tired of hanging out with just my guy friend and my boyfriend... I need more that my 5 close girl friends!! I thought sisterhood would be a good way of achieving that PLUS I really like the philanthropies of the two sororities I had hoped to get into

Would it be pointless and stupid to rush again?
PS. Thanks for reading all of that