Have I been selfish?

[damasa]

So, I'm not sure who all read about my dilema with the local that I belong to. I posted it a few months back, I guess this is just a little update. So, when the idea of trying to reform this place came about, it kind of picked up, then died away again. Talks of going national came around, and some were interested, and some were sickened by the question. A few of us started to realize that we might have to break off of the local in order to go national, because not all of the chapter wanted to nationalize. In a matter of days I have observed a new change. Many people now also want to go national. I won't mention the national we are taling with, but it has been "more than discussed" if you will.
So, since sometime yesterday it seems like many of our alum started to just get involved and to be honest, i'm puzzled by it. We haven't had much alumni interaction with the chapter for sometime, and just two weeks ago our milwaukee area alum board dissolved. Well, other alumni members decided to take it over and bring it back. These are the alum that have been mass attacking our listservs with emails on their thoughs and opinions.

I never really took into consideration how some of them felt because I thought that if they weren't around that they didn't care. Well, after reading some of these emails and understanding how busy some of these gentlemen are, I am ashamed of myself. I have been pretty depressed today because of this, and other things, and I don't know if not thinking about how busy some of these guys were made a difference in how much they cared about the chapter. I've talked to all the founding fathers and they are very upset about this, and what I thought I wanted to do is now very uncertain...