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So it's Pref. rounds. I get to the building where we are getting our assignments for where to go. I wore this really pretty black dress, and I was really excited. My recruitment counselor was calling each person aside and talking with them about what houses they were invited back to. I was nervous, but more excited. I was confident I was getting asked back to some of my favorites! Every girl could only attend two parties today.
My R.C called me over and flipped open her book, looked at the names and looked at me, then she opened her book and I saw that I had been invited back to . . .
Warm Vanilla Sugar
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Moonlit path
I was SHOCKED. My R.C kept asking if I was okay, I managed to keep a straight face and say yeah it was fine, while secretly inside I was devastated these were the two I ruled out yesterday, my last two. All the other four didn't want me or didn't like me. I somehow managed to say that I would make the best of it and maybe something special would happen during pref. rounds. I think my R.C was glad I didn't start crying or anything. So I put my best foot forward and got in line for the bus to Moonlit path.
Many girls on the bus were disappointed to be going back to moonlit path; some complained that they had gotten asked back to mango mandarin and moonlit path, I wanted to tell them I would gladly trade! So I got to Moonlit path Once again we waited outside and were called in one by one, this time the girl who took me around I didn't know, later she introduced herself as the vice president. Which was neat, we talked for awhile, they gave us cookies and a mocktail, then there was a ceremony. I just kept thinking how this wasn't right for me; I felt out of place, I didn't think that it was it for me.
Then we went to Warm Vanilla Sugar the same girl from the house party talked to me again today, and then she introduced me to her "kid" who was really nice. Honestly to this day I still feel really bad about this party. The girls talking to me were all so nice, but I was really uncomfortable, I was sitting on this chair, and the girl was like kneeling at my feet, which was just awkward. I remember getting these strawberries with Hershey chocolate sauce drizzled over them. and this girl was talking to me, I just couldn't concentrate on what she was saying, I kept asking myself what was wrong with me, why didn't the houses I like not like me? What did I do wrong? Over and over in my head that’s all I could think about. During the ceremony/singing thing they did I started crying, not even like I was touched crying, the emotions were overwhelming and I was just feeling terrible. I think I managed to hide it pretty well and hopefully no one noticed. I left knowing this was not the house for me.
My next update will probably throw everyone for a loop, and trust me you will probably be surprised! It’s not over yet! I'll update again a little later tonight.
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