no big at your initiation...

[josh8o]

my fraternity has initiation at the start of the spring semester for fall semester pledges. we had our i-week at the end of the fall semester, but we can't be initiated until we get our grades.

anyway, our initiation is on saturday and my big bro left to study abroad this semester. i'm totally happy for him that he is doing this since this is what he wanted. it sucks for me because he will not be there for it. the closer it gets and the more i think about it it just makes me feel like shit. in my house the pledges make a paddle for their big bro, and the big bros get letters for their little bros. i realized that if i make a paddle for initiation on saturday my big bro will not be there. anyway, i talked to my president and he said that i should just buy myself letters and not worry about the paddle. i'm kinda disappointed, all my pledge bros will be exchanging paddles and getting letters that match their big bros, from their big bros, and i will not. i know that part of me is going to feel alone and left out.

anyway, i just need to ramble...

josh