Thanks everyone

Yeah, I mean...it sucks, most of the time I just think I look DISGUSTING, but every once in a while I smile at myself and then start crying thinking, "why do you hate yourself so much, you know you're beautiful!" LOL but I just wish I had more days like that.

I guess it's the little devil on my shoulder telling me that I'm ugly

, and the angel just forgets to show up a lot

. Hmm...or maybe that's my mother talking in my head

I guess I just feel so worn out lately that I haven't made much time to dress up or wear makeup (especially at my 8-o'clock classes), and so I just don't give a crap about how I look sometimes...but that's awful. I dunno...I'm crazy.

I know I really can't be too ugly if I was chosen to be a model through a search thingy and had a portfolio of pictures taken. It's so nice when people do your makeup and hair for you...but it's rare (like prom, formals, and pictures I guess).