ADVICE!!

[Ren5]

What would you do if your best friend/ boyfriend/ confidant/ lover betrayed your trust? My boyfriend and I have been in a very serious relationship for the past 3 years, 2 years before that we were best friends. We've had a relationship that poeple our age dream of. Everyday has been a day filled with romance and love. He lives about an hour and 1/2 away so we aren't together everyday, not even every weekend. All his friends and family adore me and likewise with mine. His friends are always telling me that I am his world and that he loves me to death. I feel the same way about him. Well last weekend, I was starting to have these strange feelings about our relationship and couldn't quite figure out why? So while at work one day I checked his e-mail. He accidentally gave it to me a while back, but I never had any reaosn to check it. Well needless to say, what I found I wish I hadn't. Seems as though back in August, he went to a married womans house and had her preform oral sex on him. The details were very explicit and in depth. From what I gathered the only reason they didnt' go all the way was because it was that time of the month for her. He made references to coming back and them doing it again. I don't know if it ever happend, but like I sad he made references to it. TRUE I had just broken up with him that night, but I mean really, he knew I was just upset. It makes me wonder had this happend b4 and if this visit the next morning was already in the making. O.k., seems as though they had been making plans to meet again this month, but their schedules kept conflicting, so that's what really pissed me off. When I approched him about it he claimed that it only happened one time and he was upset because I had broken up with him. He also said that the meeting for this month was just a hoax, he was only playing with her about that. IMO I don;t think they were just playing if it had happend b4, he's leaving for the Air Force next month so now I'm really confused about what to do. I really hate to break up with him, after 3 long years of building a relationship and the effort we've both put into it. But I also hate to just forgive him and he thinks its o.k. and it happens again. I've already decided I'm gonna see other people becaue the trust factor is long gone. What should I do. We're suppose to have a loooong talk about this and our relationship in general soon so I need advice ASAP. Please help me!