Feeling bad and guilty

[Flirtyme]

Hi, I'm new to this forum! My name is Rachel for all of you to know. Well we just got our big sisters at San diego state, and well I really wanted this girl Nikkie to be my big sis, so bad that I kept telling myself it wasn't going to be her so it won't be as bad when I find out. This girl was so like me, loud...funny. I felt really bad though when I found out though that I got someone else, because throughout the day I kept thinking that I wanted her. Still I can't stop thinking of how bad I wanted her to be my big sis and how dissappointed I was it that wasn't her. I wanted to be happy but i couldn't help it. This other girl, Mary is also very nice, somewhat like me but is not a loud, partier and as fun as the other chick . I can't get rid of this feeling I have, and I'm afraid of hurting my big sis. I know I should give her a chance, but now every time I look at Nikkie and her new lil sis I get jealous. Help and advice? Anyone..please? I FEEL SO GUILTY AND BAD!!!!!!!!!