rejections starting to hurt again...what should I do?

[I_Love_Penguins]

I wasn't really sure where to post this so I am just posting it here and if it needs to be moved, then so be it.

Anyway. Anyone who read my recruitment story knows that unlike most of the girls who have posted in that forum, I did not get a bid to a sorority. However, my roommate and neighbor were fortunate and got bids to one of the same sororities I wanted to be in. This is what made the rejection hit especially hard.

Well as it turns out, the weekend after bids day (bids day was a Thursday night here), I had planned to take a trip home to visit my family and do some things I enjoyed...basically just getting a break from campus in general. I took the advice of the GCers on here and used the trip home to heal from the rejection and refocus so that I could come back to school ready to move on. I am involved in other activities, work on campus, and have non Greek friends, so I thought moving on would be a piece of cake. And last week I was fine.

However, tonight I could feel the pain of rejection coming back. My roommate was happy last week b/c she got the big sister she was hoping to get and she also recieved various gifts from her big. It's not that I'm unhappy for my roommate or was feeling sorry for myself over my rejection, but seeing her excitement hurt me. I want to have letters on my wall and have a big sister and hang out with a pledge class. Like I said, it's not that I don't have friends or don't have clubs to be in...but as has been said on here, nothing is a substitute for Greek Life.

The other part that's hard is seeing how other girls I rushed with got into sororities and they also have this pledging experience to enjoy. It's difficult looking at sorority websites and seeing the pictures of the new pledge class...at least one of which had people I knew in them. Also Facebook photo albums can be kind of a dead giveaway since pictures from bids night are up in various photo albums on there too.

I don't understand what happened all of a sudden. Last week I was moving on just fine and going about my other activities and being with friends...now all of a sudden, all the hurt is coming back.

What should I do?