break up

[Moxie]

my boyfriend and i broke up last night, after being together for 15 months. accck, i'm going crazy, what a transition this is going to be! i guess i instigated the break up, because things in our relationship weren't going well and i thought it would be better to end it while we still loved each other, instead of holding on too long and ending up hating each other. it's going to be really hard for both of us, we just held each other while we were both crying for so long last night. we're doing this with the thought that maybe if we spend some time apart we'll get back together, but there is always the chance that we won't. i'm so torn up, mostly because it's just so confusing. i'm trying not to cry too much, but it's so sad, how can i not?! it's so hard because we both do still love each other but we know this must be for the best - not to call constantly and hug and kiss like normally. space, room to grow, to spread our wings, and i guess to see if after that we still want to be with each other. does anybody have any stories of break ups that helped a relationship grow stronger? BLAH. love me love me love me.