Advise NEEDED unhappy with chapter placement

[Jd24]

I have had the worst luck with recruitment. I am currently a junior had did formal recruitment three times!
The first time i got into a sorority with a good rep however didnt feel like i 100% fit. So there was a part of me that wanted to try again to get a better fit and a large part of it was the fact that my boyfriend at the time hated it (threatened to break up with me over it) so i ended up dropping the bid after one day. I did formal again the following year and was prefed by an okay sorority however was never offered a bit. Soooo my junior year i forced myself to go through the process again. This time i was dropped before pref by the two chapters who kept asking me back the previous years, either which i would of been okay with. However both dropped me and i ended up with a bid from a chapter that doesnt have a good rep. I dont mean to sound superficial (im sure ill get hate for this) but everyone strives to be in the "top" sorority and this chapter is second to bottom. Needless to say im devastated.
This was my last chance to save my college experience that has yet to live up to the hype. (Havent made many friends) My school is very big in greek life and i just wish i could say that im proud of the chapter im in. Everytime i see my chapter im reminded of what other chapters i wish i was in. Its a huge regret the haunts me, i wish more than anything i could go back and stop myself from dropping the bid freshman year. Now that im a junior i have no hope to changing the outcome. I keep going back in time thinking about what i should of done, if i should of dropped before pref and hoped for a snapbid.
Ive been a new member for two weeks now and still unhappy with the chapter. I dont want to be embarrassed to wear my letters. I wish i could flaunt them and be proud of where i am. Every girl i talk to in the chapter all say that it wasnt their first choice so i know im not alone. Alot of the girls who ended up with this chapters bid ended up dropping.
Im also planning on going to graduate school after but i dont think that gives me any more hope to join another chapter. (Ive always wanted to live in a chapter house too)
So i guess im seeking advise, or anything thatll make me feel better and not disappointed where i ended up, or any possibility of hope???