Second time rushing?

[Elly]

I went through formal rush in January with my roommate, and honestly, I wasn't too sure about it. However, I did it anyway, and the first day was great! I thought I made read connections with the girls and I loved all the sororities. Ranking them was the hardest thing to do at the time, because I adored them all and would have been honored to be a part of any of them.

However, on the second day, I was devastated. I was dropped by 6 of the 7 sororities. The rejection hurt, I had felt that I had made atleast a fairly decent impression on all of the sororities, and had had fantastic conversations with all of them. I was so upset, and I cried. (I cry way too easily, I'll admit without hesitation. I've been known to burst into tears during math tests for no reason other than taking a math test.) But I went to the party, after I tried to wipe away the tears and put on a smile. And I loved the first girl I talked to. And the second one, and so on. I thought I had found a place I could be happy in.

The next day was pref, and I woke up to a phone call from my Rho Chi, telling me that I had been dropped. I figured I would be, because I was kind of a mess from my stupid inability to no cry when slightly upset, so I moved on. I tried another sorority that was colonizing at my school, and was once again dropped right before pref. So I decided to try the Phi Sig Pi, as I was invited to rush it, and well, the pattern continued.

My roommate however, wasn't dropped. She got a bid from a "high tier sorority" (not that I care about that), and was so happy. I tried to put on a happy face for her, but its hard. Its now big little week, and I just let in her big to decorate her side of the room, and during it all, I feel completely left out.

I've decided greek life is something I really want to do, but I don't know if it would be weird to do formal rush again next spring? Or is there something really wrong with me that nobody wants me to be in their organization? I understand that I probably have lower chances on getting in as a sophomore, but is being rejected by everybody a sign? They said at the beginning that "Most girls get their first or second, and that almost all girls get into a sorority who don't suicide." But they also said that we had an unusually large group of rushees. So should I give it another shot? Or would that just be wishful thinking and a waste of time?
Thank you so much for reading. <3