An apology.

[curiouss]

I've said some bad things on GC, some intentional and some unintentional. I take full responsibility for that. My behavior have not always have been the best and I apologize for that also. Looking back, I actually got some support from some folks here on GC. Everything from how to deal with a suicide close to home to dealing with an out of control good friend to advice on chapter problems. I don't want to cause trouble anymore in the same place where I got some help.

The year 2001 has been hell for me. I've been up, down, around, and even sideways on the emotional roller coster. To other members ,part of the disturbance over my behavior was the unpredictability of my words. Why did I say what I said? Fear. I feared that if I just let certain things go, I would be a loser. That backfired.

The things I said produced no enjoyment or any
type of benefit whatsoever in the end. I know this is just an anonymous (sp?) discussion board. But it is parallel with the real world. I've been trying to wing myself off of GC and the internet period within the last two weeks. Before I leave or take a break from ANYWHERE, even online, I need closure. It's like going to bed angry at someone, not good! The most important I want to practice what I preach.

PS I forgive everyone, including the members whom I disagree with often.

PEACE.