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I WAS INITIATED INTO THE FRATERNITY IN THE SPRING OF 1997. AT THAT TIME I DIDN'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT KAPPA ALPHA PSI. ONE OF MY FRIENDS WAS A SWEETHEART AT THE PATICULAR CHAPTER. SHE TOLD ME THEY WERE HAVING AN INTEREST MEETING. I WENT AND LIKE A WEEK LATER THEY WERE ASKING ME TO PLEDGE. I MUST SAY IT WAS NOT THE TRADITIONAL PLEDGE PROCESS A COUPLE OF DAYS LATER WE WHERE BEING INTIATED. WE HAD NO HISTORY OR ANYTHING OF THAT NATURE. WE WHERE ONLY TOLD TO LEARN THE GREEK ALPHABET AND THE FOUNDERS. AFTER OUR INTIATION WE WERE TOLD THAT AN OLDER BROTHER WOULD BE GIVING US HISTORY LESSONS. LET'S JUST SAY I DIDN'T FEEL WELCOMED BY THE UNDERGRADUATE BROTHERS. THE ALUMNI BROTHERS ALWAYS MADE ME FEEL WELCOMED. I WOULD HEAR STUFF LIKE WE WEREN'T REALLY KAPPAS. BUT I WAS LIKE YOU GAVE US YOUR SECRETS AND DON'T RESPECT US. ANYWAY AFTER A SERIES OF EVENTS I DIDN'T BECOME ACTIVE. IT'S MY JUNIOR YEAR AND I'M AT A DIFFERENT SCHOOL. ACCORDING TO NATIONALS I'M AN ACTIVE BROTHER, BUT I DON'T FEEL IT IN MY HEART. I DON'T FEEL I WAS PROPERLY PREPARED TO ASSUME DUTIES AS AN ACTIVE BROTHER. PEOPLE WHO KNOW OF MY INITIATION ASK ME WHY I DON'T WEAR LETTERS. IT'S NOT ABOUT LETTERS TO ME. I BELIEVE IN WHAT KAPPA STAND FOR BUT I ALSO DON'T THINK MY PLEDGE PROCESS PREPARED ME THEREFORE I'M NOT GONNA WEAR LETTERS I DON'T FEEL I EARNED. I WANT TO EXPERIENCE THE TRUE PLEDGE PROCESS. WHAT SHOULD I DO?...CAN ANYONE HELP ME?
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