Is there something wrong with me?

[bucutie02]

Okay well this is something that i think about all the time. When i went off to college my freshman year, i went to a private university about two and a half hours from home. When i got there my parents helped me move in and then my dad and my brother went home. My mom and my best friend's mom (my roomie) decided to stay one more day with us. So that very next day, i cried ALL during breakfast because i was so sad and scared about the entire college process. Just a little known fact, the summer before i began college, there were many nights when i would cry myself to sleep because i didnt want to leave home. I am not sure what i was thinking when i applied to Baylor, knowing i would have to move out. ANYWAYS, we came home about every weekend that semester. During the week i would be fine, but every Sunday when it was time to go back to Waco i would cry. It wouldnt be as bad all the time, but still. When the second semester came around, we would stay like maybe three weeks at a time before coming home for a weekend. I was really proud to be going to Baylor since it is a prestigious school, but i wasnt having any fun. I didnt have a car then so we could never just go to wal-mart or anything, and plus i felt like i didnt fit in with the people there. I mean, i did have new friends and they were great, but overall i just felt like the people there were way too stuck up and all they cared about was money! I wasnt brought up that way, so therefore i didnt feel comfortable. Now, this year i transferred to a school here in Houston. My parents mentioned the fact about living in a dorm since i wouldnt have to deal with driving in traffic, but i decided to live at home. I dont really mind the traffic all that much since i rarely hit rush hour. I enjoy going to school here since every one seems a lot more down to earth than at baylor. Sometimes however, i feel like i am missing out on the whole college experience. I basically go to school and come back home. A part of me wishes i would have stayed at baylor and another part of me is glad im going to school here. I guess what I am trying to say is that i am not very independent, and get homesick very easily. I like living at home with my parents. I remember when i was back in high school and all my friends were ready to leave home and go off to college. Maybe that was something that influenced me in applying to Baylor. My parents would always tell me to stay here and go to the school i am presently attending. I never listened to them, and was just excited to be going to baylor.

Okay well i guess all of you are desperately waiting for me to ask whatever it is that I am asking. I just wanted to know if anyone is or was like me, and how you got over your fear of "leaving the nest". Sometimes i feel like this isnt normal and that someone at my age should be a lot more independent and wanting to "grow up" i guess you can say.