Chapter was just closed - now what?

Hi everyone, I'm new here!

My sorority's chapter was just closed a couple of weeks ago. I'd rather not go into detail regarding why..... Anyway, I've been in this sorority since my second semester freshman year, and now I'm a senior, about to graduate. We had a meeting with our National President during which we were given notice that our chapter was going to be shut down and we will all be dismissed as members. She explained to us that now, according to the org, none of us have ever been members. We won't be considered alumni and basically any trace of us having connections to the sorority are going to be gone. Additionally, we can't "function" as a sorority, and we were warned against wearing our letters in that we could face legal repercussions by doing so. I personally filed an appeal but won't hear back for another few months.

In the mean time, every morning I look into my closet and seriously struggle while getting dressed because LITERALLY 90% of my clothes have letters on them. I've resorted to secretly wearing them anyway. Does anyone know if I could face any real legal repercussions by doing this? Our biggest concern is other orgs taking pictures and sending them in, because that's been a problem in the past. But I can't help but wonder what could happen to me even if I do face that scenario? Technically I have already been a member of the sorority for over 3 years, and paid A LOT of money over time in dues as well as for all of these lettered shirts/ sweatshirts etc. I don't know how anyone could expect me to just pretend like it never happened... If I can't wear them "because im no longer considered a member," couldn't I just say I'm wearing them to show support for the organization even if I'm no longer part of it?

Please let me know your take on this! And if you have any advice it'd be appreciated. (: