Rushing for the Second Time?

[coveredinpaint]

Hi, I'm second semester sophomore and last year I rushed at informal sorority recruitment at my west coast school. It's almost informal recruitment again and I'm really wondering if I should rush again.

I should probably give you some background to what happened last year: That year, my best friend and I were super stoked about going through rush together, especially since we had taken some time to really get used to college. However, I wasn't really in a good place emotionally or mentally since I just went through a horrible break up. That being said, it was really easy for my friends to convince me they'd rather want me to rush XYZ (which is what they wanted) rather than ABC which I absolutely loved. As my best friend said, "I really hope we could all be sisters." (Lets be real though, I know that girl and I know it was because I was driving that week.) All in all, it was a stupid choice because I listened to my friends than myself.

Because my friends didn't want to rush ABC and wanted to rush XYZ, I instead went to all of XYZ's events and only 1 of ABC's because I had to drive both of them to the events (and they really didn't want to rush ABC with me.)

Obviously, because of that, ABC didn't pref me, but XYZ did, but honestly I knew in my heart I didn't want to be XYZ after pref night and I was so relieved in not getting a bid. (As for my friends, my best friend didn't get a bid while my other friend did.)

So the next semester I focused on my school like I always do, I got more secure in myself, and I became an officer in a very involved arts/departmental club on campus. (Involved to the point where we get prominent people [directors and stuff] to come talk to the students.) If I rush now I know I'm in it for the right reasons and not just because I'm lonely or desperate.

So here I am, again wondering if I should do it again. Idk how bad it'd be for a girl to re-rush or if people would remember. Idk what I'd do if I was asked about last time, but most importantly would it be worth it for me to do it?