Should I let it go?

[Lizanabavi]

Hello to everyone, I hope that you all are doing well.

The reason why I am writing is because, I have been doing a lot of thinking for some time now. I have a sincere desire to become a member of your sorority however, what I have experienced for a while, I don't feel like I am getting anywhere. Some time ago I began reading the history and researching all of the great things that members of your organization have done. I spoke to someone who is a member and we conversed about my desire.

After that I noticed how I many of the young ladies of that chapter would ignore me whenever I would say a casual "hello". But when other ladies would speak who had the same desires(interest), they would respond and actually hold conversations with them. As I said before I thought perhaps I was "tripping" but this has been something that is continuous. When I read the responses from the moderators as well different members they were very encouraging. I was told that I would need to ask the members where I am at why they are behaving this way. But... whenever I try to talk to people or ask them anything they are either "too busy" or "don't have time". The young ladies that I had established a rapport with through various activities are even meaner than the ones whom I don't know very well. I'm not someone who is overbearing or a "hemrrhoid". Because once again I work and am involved in activities that I believe in. But at this point I don'feel that anyone likes me. Because they are so much nicer to others. I either get two extremes.. people being mean to me or being "blown off" altogether. Mind you there are a few other people thay they behave the same way with. But it is in no way near a lot of people to my knowledge. The reason why I am posting this message on this forum is because I truly have tried to talk to the members of that chapter, but have gotten nowhere. I don't know anyone else good enough to speak to, and I am at a point where I am going to "walk away" and leave this alone. I hope that I'm not being redundant, but I honestly do not know what to do. Anyone who has any suggestions or advice I would definitely be willing to hear(read).

Thank you,
Lizanabavi